Release

This pain deep inside,
It burns and it aches,
My addiction overcomes,
My will and it breaks.

I feel like I need,
To release all these thoughts,
I try to relax,
But now I feel lost.

I look for my tool,
Which seems like my friend,
In the end I'll regret,
My relief is a sin.

Right now I don't care,
My mind has turned numb,
I turn to this pain,
The release is welcome.

Sharp silver glimmer,
As I grasp it in my hand,
It moves across my flesh,
And becomes all I have.

I stare at it blankly,
The incision on my arm,
I never imagined,
It could cause so much harm.

The blood starts to swell,
And run down my skin,
The pressure released,
Again I gave in.

I don't know what to do,
Because this habit won't end,
The scars form to remind,
And my feelings don't mend.