I feel as though your so far away from me
like my prayers can't be heard.
the words that are spilling from my mouth
within my intramural sorrows,
are long forgotten within your apperception.
when i'm on my knees beseeching you,
nothing feels right.
unworthy impressions bran my sanity.
catastrophic conviction remains within my mind.
are you really out there ?
should i continue to believe ?
hold on to the assumptions,
maintain with my selfish wishing ?
i want to tell you all i feel, but all that is said,
is you already know.
i just have to recommence with my prayers
for your help and guidance.
you have so many out there, considerably less fortunate than myself.
why would my complications be superior to their own ?
hungerly i remain hopeful of a relationship with you.
capable to join you within your known kingdom.
being able to have acceptance within your eyes.
nothing seems right to me in this world.
so little, i feel i have given back to you.
all i understand is what i have read and heard
from those you have created.
i hardly believe in what i have been taught.
i want you to reach out for me, but continually,
there is nothing, but me reaching out for you.
and dejectedly i remain having the feeling your to distant to attain.
