Not for you, no ?

The bellows of my eyes trinkle.
I'm trying to hold back.
the tears i do not want to release.
the cries i do not want to shed.
I'm trying to play it sane.
trying to play it cool.
but every time i talk to you,
i feel like a fool.
so tell me if you want me here.
tell me if you care.
if you don't want to have me,
then leave "us" if you dare.
my body isn't something to be used.
i bleed, i hurt, i ache.
maybe I'm just not good enough,
someone you don't need.
i try so hard to keep how i feel in.
not let you know i feel bare,
but every time i look at you,
my heart wants you there.
i get that goofy smile,
and my body begins to shiver.
i can't help, but get sad,
depressed and feel alone.
i don't want to feel this way.
i know i should let it go.
I'm just desperate to have someone.
someone there to call my own.
i miss that feeling of someone there for me.
i miss the feeling of someone there to care.
just say goodbye.
say farewell, if you want.
i couldn't keep you as my own,
i can't have you.
I'm just not good enough,
someone you don't need.
all i am worth,
is someone to do the deed.
use me all you want.
ter my flesh in two.
enter me and leave me there.
leave me there to die.
all I'm worth is to be used by you.
i could never have you as my own.

11/22/2004