WHY SHOULDNT I DIE?

The scars from back then
have slowly faded away
faded from my arms
but not from the veins

i miss that pain
it took everything away
and made it all OK

i just waited for one day
to make a mistake
hoping that when they found me
it would already be to late

they would find warnings
that they already couldn't see
all anyone had to do to notice
is just take a look at me

i cut my arms
cause i had nothing to live for
life was enough pain
so why not cause more

but now Ive stopped
and i don't know why
cause the reason i stopped is gone
so why shouldn't i die