Why God?

Bitter are the words I'm fine,
because deep inside I'm dying my heart is bruised and my life is gone,
i walk among those who seem strong,
My heart screams for help but my lips do not move,
A fake smile covers my pain,
The laughter and joy is to much to bare,
I run to the shadows where i sit and cry,
The pain is becoming to much for me
I'm growing weak with every tear ,
i lift my head up to ask god why,
why must i live,why cant i die?
It begins to hurt as i open my mouth and scream out please someone help me,wont someone just listen?' my eyes begin to sting as more tears raise..i lay my head down to feel the pain grow stronger as no one comes to help me fight..this sickness or Depression

I know it sucks but yeah..leave a comment if ya don't mind