The pain only grows

Like an old school desk
my heart left scratched and scarred
covered by your fingerprints
used to cut what you found like shards

so many memories of you
tear me apart day after day
it seem this is what Ive become
those blue skies turned to gray

form the start you did all you could
to make me leave my closest friends
but i loved you then, i always will
this broken heart shall never mend

after you had made me feel so special
you'd threaten me with all i had told
all your anger fired at me
left distraught, alone and cold

whenever a glimmer of hope was shone
you'd block the light from my vision
remind me how id have to stay with you
it wasn't my own decision

remember that summer night
told me how you were going to die
explained how, what had happened
then just listened to me as i cried

tied into your net so coarse
tangled into your web
all the time, receive abuse from you
in return my tears were shed

i know it wasn't all sad
when you were in a good mood, things were great
you'd make me smile, feel so whole
then you'd turn bringing only hate

that day i showed you the cuts and scars
promised you'd help me pull through
but then you'd threaten down the phone
silently i cried as the pain only grew

making sure i let down my friends
by this time i had no strength to fight
id do what ever to be with you
even though i would cry each night

you still haunt my mind, each thought
they all come back to you
no way out, all i can do is try
so i try to erase you from my view

lie to myself that you're not really there
pretend my heart doesn't skip a beat
pretend i don't need you to live
and you never really made me complete