Inside

What is this feeling i feel inside?

This suffocating feeling that just wont let me hide

I can't escape, It's just too strong

It is confusing to me, It has been so long

Do I deal with it now, or find an easy way out?

No thats not the answer, that it is right- I highly doubt

I can't go on like this no longer, I can't take much more

That it is troubling.. I can't ignore,

One minute I'm laughing the next I'm crying

Today I'm happy, but tomorrow I feel like my spirit is dying

I know i have my fault and flaws

But why am I like this, what is the cause?

So many stressful things to really think about, Things causing fears

So much all at once, its hard to control,

No one i talk to understood no one to console,

Who do you turn to when no one is there?

To put to rest this never ending nightmare

There has to be something or someone to assist,

When feeling you don't need to exist,

The Consequences I've faced, There is no reward.

The bad things are noticed the rest is ignored

Will this feeling ever change or is it too late?

It can't stay like this forever, I don't think, I can wait

I can't deal with this now, I have to put it off

Some how it's too much all at once,

It shouldn't be what anybody wants