Sliced Skin

I told them all it was over
OK, so I lied
But they don't really care about me
They wouldn't notice if I died

In a way it wasn't lying
I thought it was over too
But last night is all too clear
I was crying over you

Not because I love you
But because you don't love me
I don't know why it matters
Sometimes that's the best way it can be

I never thought I could hurt this much
Especially on a good day
Now it feels like I have no one
Because I pushed them all away

I wasn't even hurting
Why did I do the deed
I promised I would stop
But this pain is something that I need

It reminds me of my sins
When I'm feeling great inside
Reminds me I'm worth nothing
And of the secrets that I hide

I will always have my scars
To remind me of what's within
My secrets will stay buried
Hidden somewhere under my sliced skin

© ShatteredAngel 2005