Cloudy Thoughts

Why do I feel this pain when you’re not here?
How can I get over these feelings that are taking over me?
Fear, pain, and love is all I feel when I’m with you.
I fear of hurting you, feel pain when you don’t look at me, but love you so much.

I cant forget the way we first met.
Sunny day at the river, but clouds were stuck inside my head.
My vision was blurry, and the words could not escape my lips.
Too afraid of hurting you, I could not speak.

But you helped me through my phobia.
Standing by my side, never letting me go.
Until we went home, and my heart gave way, for the first time.
I tried to put it back together, but it couldn’t be done.

I sat in my lonely state, days and days at a time.
Too bottled up to even know what I wanted.
But I knew I wanted you, and I thought you wanted me.
But you just looked by me, and I didn’t know why.

But now I’m coming home, home to you.
No welcoming party, just your open arms to lure me back.
All the love, that there once was so long ago.
On that sunny day at the river when my mind was covered by clouds.