Unfinished

It still only feels like just yesterday
And I still can’t believe its true
I can’t believe that you passed away
That this time, you didn't pull through

When I saw your body in the open coffin
It just felt so truly surreal
Kept telling myself that you weren't really dead
Didn't know just what to feel

But time has passed by, and the days have grown dim
And nothing feels the same
There’s this empty space that’s under my skin
And it causes so much pain

I don’t really know how to deal with your loss
How to accept you’re really gone
I keep breaking down when I should stand tall
You'd want me to be strong

I just feel so lost…nothing can soothe this pain
How do I carry on alone?
I’m trying to be brave whilst I’m torn at the seams
If only my heart was stone

Last night I cried and I looked to the sky
But I couldn’t see your face
How do I keep those memories alive
When you left without a trace?

Last night I prayed and I begged to hear
Your voice for one last time
I listened so hard to hear someone’s voice
But all that I heard was mine

A little voice that sounded so lost
Calling out alone in the night
She sounded like she really needed some help
She sounded so full of fright

But, I guess, no matter how hard I try to escape
Myself, and this pain in my life
One day I’ll have to deal with your loss
That you died whilst under the knife

And maybe when you look down on me
Maybe you will smile
Because maybe one day someone will be proud of me
If only just for a while

And maybe you might look down upon me
When I marry my one true love
Maybe you’ll see me finally happy
And smile from up above

It’s hard to think I’m going to live my life
Without you standing by my side
It’s hard to imagine that this pain will leave
For every night, alone, I’ve cried

I don’t think I’ll ever accept that you’re gone
That you’ll never ever return
But I’ll treasure all those times with you
And those words that helped me to learn

It just all feels so unfinished
And I know exactly why…
But maybe it’s better this way that I
Never said goodbye

I miss you... x