R.I.P

Through soot-wet mascara eyes. All these years I've watched you die.
And as you fell before me to the floor. I wondered should I have done more.

Laying there no beat within your heart. As if I've never known you, right from the start.
But there was still something in your eyes. That left me helpless and paralyzed.

I said "Trust in me" And I watched you fall. I failed you, the world so big, you so small.
You got lost in your own mind, so much pain. I'm so ashamed, drowning in the never-ending rain.

This surely cannot be happening to me. Its not the way my life was meant to be.
Never will I break free from this day. You always knew there was no other way.

I hate you for the secrets you lived, I was here. I'll take life on, I have no fear.
I will strangle myself with this same piece of rope. If it means to understand why you gave up hope.

Warm blood rushes to my head. Is this the feeling of being almost dead?
All of a sudden the sky falls from paradise. I'm confused, is this why you were enticed?

My eyelids grow heavy, I see you amid white sands. No longer are you the notion of touching hands.
Time has found us here. And distance separates us my dear.

Tragedy and depression surrounds you in every way. How did I miss the signs, with you everyday.
Your tainted mind dreamt of this, scared to feel. My dark heart made it ever real.

The rope tightens, I'm trapped in the arms of unknown destiny. But I'm not like you, pulling free into reality.
I think I understand, if this is what sets you free. Just needed to know, now I can let you be.

The emergency team finally arrive to take away this lifeless thing. They speak, filling my head with empty meaning.
I will say the words you couldn't find. I'm young and wild but my eyes are not blind.

I'll break all traditions, I can only live this way. And I'll see you at the bitter end of my day.

R.I.P

Note: They say that death kills you, but death doesn't kill you. Boredom and indifference kills you.