Why you gave up

For so long i wasn't ready
to face what had happened that night
i was so afraid of you leaving
i thought i would never survive
but with all that had gone wrong
loosing my best friend to death
i still thought that you would be there
as my angel through the rest
but you abandoned me
you made everything right go wrong
i fell the night i lost you
and i knew that i would not be the same
four years after your death
i am ready to face you again
never will i forgive
that you left without a goodbye
i just wish there were some way
that i could see you once more
i miss you so much
but i just don't understand where you are
i wish there were something
some way that i could get these questions through
i wish that you could answer
with a reason why when i never gave up on you
you gave up on me

sry it sucks... i just had to get feelings out