Colorful tears

With every tear my mask fades
I'm afraid
afraid that they will See my pain
afraid to let them into my world

afraid to let to them know
of the way i dream
dream in red
afraid to let them know I'm a spiritless angel

with my forced smiles and
fake laughs
wristbands and bracelets
long sleeved shirts
they cant see me
they wont know me

they think I'm so happy
they think my life is perfect
but in realtitly I'm so lifeless and
hollow
so innocence and lost

afraid to let them know
I'm miserable
with there red patterns on my body
abandoned by everyone

afraid to let them know
that all i need is for ppl to care
afraid to let them know because
of what they may say
or that they make think
that i do it for attention

so back into my little dark corner with saying a word
back to my corner to cry these colorful tears