I said "Lets take a break" now im broken

Why can't I die
Why can't I disappear
Everything is black
Now that you're not here
I take slices into my wrist
Concealed by a band for fear
that i will ruin any chance with you
my lovely; my dear

It's been only a day
and it already seems that your so far away
I hope you come back in due time, no, I pray
All this pain is tied up inside and i can not see you, for fear that I will have nothing to say
I hope all of this pain will go away;
that you will come back and stay