My Heart's Choice

~*~*~This poem is for Miguel D., the boy who stole my heart. Miguel, if you read this, don't hate me more than you do.~*~*~

When I see you my heart beats quicker,
but slower too,
my heart choose you for me,
but it couldn't choose me for you.
I miss my old happy days,
where I would smile as I passed,
we were tough competitors toward each other,
but I knew the smile wouldn't last.
I lost this summer,
and it was because I love you,
I just thought of you over and over,
cause there was nothing I could do.
I could have called a friend for your number,
just to say I was sorry for what I did,
but if I even got the number,
would I have the guts to actually call you?
I knew I wouldn't,
so I didn't make any calls,
only if I had courage,
I might destroy the wall.
The wall holds us apart,
I used to put a brick in everyday,
but now that my heart's chosen to love you,
I take a brick away.
Hundreds upon hundreds of bricks are stacked,
holding me from telling the truth,
that I am the one who loves you,
and I will never give up.
If this wall ever breaks,
between you and me,
maybe we could be friends,
because I know it's not meant to be.
I wish things were different,
that I never saw your face,
I remember the day you came,
February 4, 2004, a day I will always remember.
If you know who I am,
just speak up,
cause I will love you until the day I die,
no matter how many times my heart has been scathed.

*~*~*Miguel, this is all true. I wish that if you read this, please do not confront me. *~*~*