Doldrumz

I MADE THIS ONE AFTER I HAD A BREAK UP WITH MY GF. WE ENDED BUT I WAS NOT ABLE 2 EXCEPT IT AND I WAS IN TWO MINDS ABOUT WHETHER SHE WILL COME BACK TO ME OR NOT.
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things you do ,
and words you say;
are always with me,
though you have gone away.

once you loved me,
now it isn't the same;
yet my heart beats wild,
just by thought of our name.

i try so hard,
but cant leave you behind;
why are you the only one,
to stay on my mind.

i know you wont come back,
you wont be mine again;
but i cant except the reality,
it just drives me insane.
so i think you are there for me,
knowing that you are not;
cant imagine you being away,
cos i love you a lot.

a lie is meant to fade away,
wont last for too long;
but myself i know,
i am not that strong.

just for my heart`s sake,
i live with feelings so fake;
i know it has to end somewhere,
but pain of losing you i cant bear.

so i still dream of you,
and hope that my dreams come true;
knowing it very well;
whatever i do, i have no chance of getting you.

in state of total doldrums,
i find myself now;
lost you once, want to get you back;
just don't know how.