I called

I called you a friend and you ignored me,
It made me wanna kill you,because you knew i was lonely.
Was it because you got tired of being friends?
I don't care I don't need you,I never wanna see you again.
You tried to talk to me, and I did what you did to me,
I ignored you,I wish you understood me.

I called you mom and dad, and you never cared,
It caused me alot of pain,more than I could bare.
I tried to be a good child, but you ignored me also,
You kept me locked up, call me names and a psycho.
Why do you two love to torture me,why?
Now all I wanted is for this life to just die.
But I think it's already dead,now it's decaying,
So when I do die, I'll go to heaven, I do alot of praying.

I called you my love,
You too did not understand me, what were you thinking of?
It hurts that you say you loved me,
But the real me you did not see.
I gave you my heart, but you avoided it like it was a disease,
You ignored me all the time, whenever you pleased.

I called myself a person, but I see I was wrong,
I thought I was good.I thought I was strong.
I pick up the blade, and wonder if I'll still be ignored,
I slit my wrists, and wonder for me what God has in store.