Don't, Just Don't.

* This isn’t a poem as such, it’s the lyrics to a song I’m writing, but please vote/ comment  x x x x

I don’t think that I
Can become this
Don’t ask me why
Cos it’s something I’ll miss
Don’t make me sad
But I know I can’t be that way
Cos my past see, so bad
That memories haunt and stay
And when you ask me
To be this
I so badly wanna be
But it’s something I’m gonna miss

(Chorus: )
Cos I don’t know how to love
Don’t know how to give
Without what I’m thinking of
These thoughts, not wanting to live
Don’t call me pathetic
You haven’t felt this way before
Don’t tell me to just forget it
Cos I’ll just think about it more

Please, don’t pressure me, or I’ll break
Can you not see the smiles were fake?

So it’s just one more thing
I can never do
Can’t play, can’t dance, can’t sing
My dreams never to come true
And I am tired, back and forth they go
Swinging in false motion
And inside my head, I know
No matter what sort of devotion
I manage to lavish on them
They’ll never come through
I’ll just fall again
It’s hard, cos see, I’m not like you

(Chorus)

Sometimes when I sleep
Sometimes I go so deep
It’s like looking at what could have been
It tears me up, so now … I don’t want to dream.

Please, don’t pressure me, or I’ll break
Can you not see the smiles were fake?
[Don’t you see how much it makes me ache?]
Please, don’t pressure me, or I’ll break
Can you not see the smiles were fake?

Don’t call me pathetic
You haven’t felt this way before
Don’t tell me to just forget it
Cos I’ll just think about it more

You want me to rise to where you are?
But don’t you see that is just too far?

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