So many days i cried when i saw you in your home laying hopelessly in a coma. it was like watching my favorite toy being ripped apart from my hands from a bully. before the coma when you could actually partially talk i could not see you without crying. Your head was bald from the chemo, and your smiling face was barely there, it was like someone had taken over my grammy's body. when you were in a coma i knew it would be over even though i prayed and cried to god to save you and let you live your life just even a few more years..i sat there in front of your hospice bed as you lied motionless except for the heavy breathing that scared me senseless, i held your hand so tight i felt your bones up against my skin so tight, i cried in your home while my whole family was in another room my 4 cousins and my 3 uncles with my aunts crying my heart out. saying Grammy stay with me i love you so much....and i know you were slipping away but i did not want to let that thought sweep through me one more time...i went to school the next day and had a breakdown when i cried so hard and told my friends you were in a coma..the feeling was so hurtful. when they said you passed away i did not have many tears left to shed. when i went to your house to see them take you away i just sat outside on the steps and cried and realized what was happening. during the part when we greeted the people i only cried real hard in the beginning and my Nana said you Grammy would not want you to cry but what did she know....when the funeral came i was prepared to say a letter i wrote to my Grammy about memories... throughout the ceremony if thats what you call it i was bawling when i was staring at the bland coffin holding my Grammy inside. and watching my brother carry her away my aunt said Mallary relax you need to read. when i went up i had my sister come with me, i read half and then choked with tears, i had to turn away but my sister urged me to go on, i did and i was praised by many people afterwords... even tho this isn't really a poem it is sort of a poem of life of how things can be taken from your grasp, i will miss my Grammy but she will be in my heart forever..i hope you all learn that when stuff gets hard, you need to stay strong even though i cried quite a bit i dealt with it... thanks
