Be with you

I never thought my last solution would be suicide I never thought my life would come to an end so soon but now I know thoughts aren't always true

I never got the idea of killing myself until I lost you everything was so confusing when you left me to get by all by myself but I couldn't do it so I'm writing this with a razor at hand

I never said anything to you about how much I appreciated you there I didn't tell you I loved you as much as I should have

I always said we would be together till the end of time and you would say it too but the day God took you away I was devastated because you were so young and you had so much ahead of you

I would say to myself I was the luckiest person because I had you as my best friend and that I would never give anything up for you expect my life

I know now that you are gone you will be watching me and you won't ever let me do anything to hurt myself but right now while I can I will so I can be with you..