THE FACT OF WANTING TO DIE

What you don't know wont hurt you
wont stop you sleeping at night
wont make you feel obligated
to make everything right
it wont make you take away my blades
wont make you check my arms
wont make me go for counseling
because you cant talk about self harm
the excuses will keep on coming
because i will not tell you
the cat will keep on getting the blame
for something that i do
amazing how you think
that you now me so well
when my one depest secret
its you i cant bear to tell
you asked me what was wrong today
and with a tear in my eye
said nothing
just the fact i want to die