Family matters

I may not be good at expressing myself. but don't you ever think that it may because I'm hurting so badly that i cant even explain can think of nothing else. I'm tired of always having to hide everything from everyone. scared of showing my emotions scared of what people might think. i am so tired of trying to make everyone think i live the perfect life. i over hear my mom having conversations about my dad how he ain't Neva hear for us how she thinks his cheating and every time i hear this i hate them more and more. hear i am hiding everything and her telling people hearing her complain. when she tells me whats going on i feel like yelling and just telling her to shut up! how I'm tired of all this as if i didn't get enough every time their together. i always wonder if I'm the only one affected by this. i look at my brother and no his to busy with his life and his girlfriend. then i turn to my sister and no i get the same reaction so i say to my self sorry your on your own with this one. everyone else is either to busy or just doesn't care to notice how much I'm affected by all this. having my sister across the room from me when i sleep. and yet when i cry myself to sleep she don't care cause shes on the phone with her boyfriend. and no one cares to even ask whats wrong so if you ever were to ask is something was wrong i would Dennie it and say I'm I'm fine because you to prolly don't care to hear. all you'd do is feel sorry. i am not good at expressing myself cause i haven't been showing the love to care. and the only way to get everything all out is by writing its my escape!

~*all I'm seeking is to feel the love that i know is in our family*~

EVERYONE THAT IS READING THIS THANKS YOU ALOT I WOULD LOVE IF U COMMENTED CAUSE I HAVE GONE THROUGH ALOT AND STILL I AM AND PLEASE TELL ME IF YOU ARE GOING THROUGH THE SAME. I REALLY NEED ALL THE SUPPORT I CAN GET. THANK YOU ALL!