New Me

All alone in my
dark room with nothing
but the sound of my
heart beating faster and faster.

I look at my reflection
and start to cry.
I'm everything I said
I would never be.

I'm everything that
they always preach
against.

I'm nothing more than
a lost cause, just
another loser.

I do things that I said
I would never do,
Iv given up stuff
that I cant get back.

Now I'm stuck with
no where to go,
no one to turn to,
and no shoulder to cry on.

I lay on my floor and
cry until I realize there is
nothing more that
I can do.

This is how I have chosen
to live my life.
This is who I am,
This is the new me.