To be back never

I hate my life
i want to die
i stare at the knife
and begin to cry

i have a reason to live
he means the world to me
i give him all i have to give
but my pain he can not see

but i can't go on
its just too hard
there are too many cons
so I've played my cards

i've chosen my fate
to let go forever
im filled with hate
to be back never