Quiet things no one knows

The only reason i choose to open my eyes is so you can see all the tears i cry when i show you the marks of pain you just simply scream my name when i lie alone in bed i think about every stupid thing Ive done and said as i close my eyes to sleep i see the promise that i didn't keep all i do is look at myself, ashamed how i have no one to even blame my aching heart wont stop beating i cant seem to keep my arm from bleeding i wont be happy until the day i die even though it will make you cry but being sad inside is the worst thing hoping for deaths deadly sting now tomorrow i must go these are the quiet things no one will ever know