I want to wake from this fantasy
I have no control over
I need to break away and feel
the essence of the wind
Look out the window
Broken leaves from a dead
tree
The skies so cold I want the
winter within me to freeze me up inside
Numbness is fading so quickly
The pain searing to be so
clear
But all i see is a blur or tears ready to fall
I sit here and i wonder to myself
"what if?"
Would I have been marked by the past Would i have screams of
blood ringing though out my
lifeless body
Regrets of guilt Shocked by the terror
I'm starting to realize
Drowning in the fire of screams
and cries I've kept unwept and silent Was this all for a purpose
Was it all just a piece if His
test His plan
Why has He given such an impossible exam
When the real challenge is to bare yourself life
Breathless with mistakes
Frozen from secrets like ice
Struggling to erase the lies I've revealed
Love caused heart break
Dream caused terror
Hope caused the cries i bleed
Scream Cry Go insane!
Watch the tears drip from my wrist
No one saw the signs
No one heard my death wish
Feel a hand in mine Whispers of promise
Will my depression be forgotten
Or will this hand tear me apart
