Suicide Letter (sad poem category)

This is my suicide Letter
I'm so sorry for it all
Because I failed to make things any better
So Im going to let myself fall

I know the fault is all my own
I regret all those things that I did
Now I'm forced to be all alone
And all of those things Id love to rid

I wish I could go back to that time and place
Right there in the aisle
I wish I could change the expression on your face
By turning back the time dial

I wish I could win your love right back
For this is something that I need
But as I pull this gun off its rack
I can lacerate my mistakes as I bleed

Now my mind is empty and dead
With no reason left to live
Pumped my brain full of lead
With nothing left to give

My bullets of guilt have pierced to kill me
My insecure soul has passed me by
Everything I wanted to become I will never be
I am unable to have relief and sigh

So goodbye to this world so unfair
I wish it could have ended another way
But the pain I know I cannot bear
So maybe I will be alive some other day
For if there is a chance indeed I may