Only my reflection

Inside i am dying,
Slowly rotting away
I've messed up my life
So miserable i will stay

I screwed with my friends
And hurt my Mum too
I never learned my lesson
And i blame it all on you

If only you had spoke
Looked back in on me
Instead of acting so faceless,
Like you couldn't see

For years you sat silent
Afraid to shed a tear
Sometimes i saw you tremble
But you didn't really care

All those nights dad yelled
You just stood around
Instead of helping me
You made not a sound

Then that day in Winter,
When he pushed me down
You saw all of those things
But you just gazed over and frowned

Because you are gutless
A worthless waste of space
And in my heart i hate you,
For not showing your cowardly face

You could have been loving,
Even wiped away my tears
But you just kept on lying
Hiding from all your fears

Now I'm looking at you,
Alone and broken inside
I tried to make you listen
But i know you want to hide

So goodbye lonely heart,
I'm sorry I've left you here
But I'm really struggling to cope
With only my reflection near