when i sit in the dark i think about all i have gone threw like death of friends and mean civilian's but most of all i sit in the dark wondering why i come out. no one can hurt me or even touch me. i dream about being raped and killed. wishing that this would not come true. as i sit there with no one to love me or for me to love them. all i wanted was happiness and all i got was pain. my heart is nothing but a muscle that no longer has feelings. why must i feel this pain why. i cry every night thinking about everything i lost. and always cared about why is life worth living why must i go threw pain like this and still be able to stand strong. but know i know why because i am a American and i am strong and sweet at the same time.
