Callous Love

I first met her at a time
When my life was full of strife,
I was full of fear, hurt, and pain
As I had just divorced my wife.

At first she was only a friend,
Someone in whom I could confide.
With her I could share my dreams,
My fears I did not hide.

As time went we became very close,
In my heart she lit a spark.
No longer were my days long, lonely,
Barren, and dark.

However with time I became complacent,
I took advantage of what I had.
I became self-centered and callous,
My attitude was bad.

And so I thought I would end it,
And when she asked me why,
I said that we were much too different,
It hurt to see her cry.

A few weeks then months went by,
My thoughts were still on her.
I was much too afraid to call her back,
But wanted things the way they were.

I must have been a fool,
To ever let her go.
She was the best thing that ever happened to me,
The records now will show.

So now I sit idle,
Praying that she knows,
My love for her is great,
And every day it grows.

But why should I expect her,
To give me another chance.
Will she give into me,
Or keep firm her stance.

I'm doing my best to convince her
That my love is really true,
But will she lock my heart out,
And keep me feeling blue?

I sense she's still unsure
If she should open up her heart again,
I can't say she's to blame,
After all it was me that extinguished
her heart's flame.

If I could turn back the hands of time,
I certainly would.
I'd climb the highest mountain,
If I thought it would do any good.

I really do not know what to do,
To get her back with me.
I've tried begging, crying, pouting,
Yet she's yet to hear my plea.

I want her to know that I love her,
And that my heart skips a beat,
Whenever I see her smile and laugh,
Or just when our eyes meet.

So I'll just keep on praying,
That one day she'll be,
A bigger person than I was,
And set this callous heart free.