Battle scars

Over and over again
My past plays in my head
And it’s on repeat
The never-ending sad song
Is stuck in my head
I can’t get it out
And it hurts so badly
The mistakes I’ve made keep coming back to me
Why can’t they just go away?
I was such an idiot
And even though things are different
I still think about the past
I did walk away
Yeah I moved on but I keep looking back
To see a horrible scene, a battle field of ruthless war
I won the battle
As a soldier I’m traumatized
Too much drama from the many battles I’ve won and walked away from
And these scars will never heal
The pain I still feel
Emotionally I’m a wreck
I’ve felt so much pain that nothing hurts anymore
Just the past
That horrible forsaken past
I can still hear the silent screams and the guns blast
All I can do is put it on pause
For those moments I smile
But then I feel the pain again from the cause

I’m a traumatized soldier
With many battle scars
Carrying a bag full of pain weighing down my shoulders
Coming back from victory
I have to move on
But how can I stay strong
When the past keeps on coming back
Then the light turns into black
But a soldier never gives up

My life my country in which I live in
I fight for it.
The mistakes will never be forgotten
But my sins will be forgiven.