When hope had died

I’m so angry at this world
My life’s worse than a joke
I’m so behind, beyond a failure
The last emotion left was hope

The work was getting harder
I never could catch up
My dreams kept falling, crashing down
Couldn't take it, had enough

Away from my spot in heaven
The one kept special for me
Awaiting the day of my last final breath
The life, from me, I will bleed

I always tried to look
On the lighter side of grey
That was my life, a shade so dark
I’d of never been able to say

Who I am or what I could be
If only I spoke the truth
But that would only bring about the pain
You accumulate during your youth

If that was the best time of my life
I stopped the madness now
Because I’ve reached the bottom, the lowest point
My self esteem had never been so low

But isn’t this a good thing?
It’s what I feel I deserve
I’m so tired of looking, never living my life
I feel I’m only here to serve

And when we’re sure we know this
How can we stand tall?
When so many that surrounds us
Would love to see us fall

From my last thoughts, I hope you gather
That the lives that you ignore
Will soon come back to haunt you
Regret now more than before

And the person who was invisible
Will grow with the strength, the lust
To see they’re dreams, never again to fall
And my death will serve a purpose

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