There Is No "Me"

The power has gone out
But nothing has changed
I do the same routine day after day
Nothing worth wild
Nothing exciting
Nothing even average
I have lost most of my friends
I have two real friends that I can touch
And I like them both
So I put on a pretty face
A face the both will like
I have not shown myself in a long time
My heart is nearly absent
Just a void in my chest
Do not try to look for me in my eyes
There is nothing there either
Soulless person just wonder around
Turn my eyes to black and I do not think you will notice
I have lost all will to live
Yet I trod along everyday
Hoping someone will see me beneath the covers
Hoping that someone can see past my charade
Even the ones I have told my secrets to
They see only what I let them
No one knows me
Do not think you do because you do not
I form myself to be more like you
More like the people I am around
If you swear a lot
Watch me be vulgar
If you laugh a lot
Watch me giggle more
If you are down a lot
Watch my mood falter
There is no way you know me
When I do not even know myself
I have pretended to be like the people around me
That I have lost sight of myself long ago
If you are prep
I’ll change my clothes
If you are Goth
I’ll paint my face black
If you are me
I do not to what it would be
Beneath the mask I wear
I am afraid there is nothing there
Just a hollow shell
Acting the way everyone else does
I am the best actress you will ever know
I have played this role so long
That it has become me
What you see in me
Is what I see in you
When you look at me
You see yourself
Because there is nothing beneath the mask
The powers out
Nothing has changed
Just someone in the dark
That someone is me
But I am afraid I can not say me anymore