My heart is numb
as I hear
these songs replay
day by day,
my tears are trapped
for I cannot cry
for anyone anymore.
You have gone
you have left me,
and I have known
all along
that all things
that are too sweet
cannot last...
I listen
to the rain
drip from
my window,
and I see happiness
right on front of me
staring at me,
but I cannot
feel,
I can't feel
whether I am happy
or sad.
Day by day
i'm looking through
a glass window...
shut from the world
around me,
shut from the sound
of laughter.
Yet the sunlight
streams on my hair
and I feel
the warmth.
I don't understand
what this feeling is
for I feel like
i'd never find
another to spend my heart on...
anyone that deserves
my strength,
someone that
I would devote to.
Everyone I see
lacks the one I wish
to seek,
everyone does not seem
to understand my
complicated ideas
my feelings
and my emotions.
I do not feel as if
I could love again
in my dreams,
or in reality
for I do not know
which path to take.
I am standing
on a crossroad
looking behind me
and to where I have made
my journey,
but I look ahead to
multiple roads.
Where do I go,
which do I choose
which way my
heart beckons
I cannot tell.
I'm sitting
underneath
the sign post
day in and day out
what I am waiting
for I do not know,
and what if
I stay here forever
and lose hope
wilting.
Even now, I feel
like I am daunted,
about this new world
called love.
I have never been
there except once
where my heart was
broken...
do I have the willingness,
the spirit
to fall again?
How much can
I trust my senses
and my heart
for the person
who I will be giving
my devotion to?
They say that love is blind...
perhaps it is true,
but when will
I know who it is
that is right for me?
I am going to sit
right here
under the signposts
and I cannot budge...
I need someone
to guide me,
someone to tell me
that i'm wrong,
that I cannot think this way
love will eventually
prove to me
that love is conquerable
and that love is something
I have to follow
no matter the weather,
the roads
and the barriers.
I need someone
to come out from the
side road
and take my hand,
my heart
and point it
to where I should go...
they say
that love comes
when you look the other way.
Where are you
where are you my
savior,
when are you coming
when will you
show me
the way...
Till then,
I will sit
under the signpost
and stay there
rain or shine,
I'll wait for you.
