This is how i feel

(This poem isn't good either but again here it is anyway...)

When I realized I loved him,
I didn't know how to act.
I didn't think i could live with out him,
And when i lost him, I thought i would always want him back.

It was a crazy feeling, that i cant explain,
My legs would go weak when i saw him in the hall.
When we were together, he always knew when i was upset,
And he would always be there to catch me when i fall.

Not too long ago he wrote me a note,
Saying he still has mixed feelings for me.
But if your going to make fun of me everyday,
Then obviously we all know you hate me.

Maybe you tell me all this cause I'm so nieve,
And I'll think you actually want to be friends.
But right when you find out I'm not moving,
Then you being nice to me ends.

I want to comfront you,
And ask you why you do this.
But I'm scared to know what you might say,
Or maybe you'll make jokes about my wrist.

Maybe you should open your eyes for once,
And take a long hard look at me.
Then it might hit you,
That i was trying to be all you wanted me to be.

You go on and on about how I hurt you so much,
But just to let you know you hurt me too.
I'm sorry for caring about you and crying myself to sleep every night,
My god I'm just sorry that I was in love with you!

Is that what you want to hear?
That I'm sorry for loving you and sorry that I care?
The only thing I want is for you to not put me down constantly,
I swear, this just isn't fair.

I'm not saying this to make you feel like shit,
Cause we all know if you read this you would laugh at me.
I just wanted to say I'm sorry for hurting you as much as you think I did,
And that I'm a good person and friend and thats what i want you to see.

So take all the words I said, and think about them real hard,
Read them over and over again till you understand it.
Then please came up to me and say "I wont tease you anymore."
Please say to me you understand and that you quit!