The secret (revised)

As i stand
razor in my hand
you scream at me to stop
i feel myself let go
and i hear the knife drop

i look at you try
with tears in your eyes
to make me see
you don't know it's the only way
to take control for me

i watch as you look
at the blook i tood
from my own heart
but you don't see
i'm about to fall apart

you didn't know
cause i never let the pain show
i hid behind a mask
never let you see and
completed every daily task

no one knew
and the pain just grew
but you're all i have left
and i see your pain
as you learn the secret i kept

you now see the demons
and cutting helps me free them
you know my deepest secret
do you understand
why i had to keep it?

the pain in your eyes
i can see it clearly as you cry
i can see it hurts so deep
that is why i had to
even thought it burned to keep

it is my pain you see
meant for him solely for me
yes, that's right
he caused this
and you still expect me to fight?

after my heart was crushed
torn out and brushed
with 1000 burning knives
completely ending
every aspect of my life

now you can see the demons inside
i cannot put them aside
and as i begin to cry
you finally start to realize
i just want to die