Just a dream

Every night rocking myself to sleep

I roll myself in a tight little heap

hiding myself from the worlds painful eyes

when I drift to sleep I dream of your hands on my thighs

holding me close keeping me warm

I'm no longer feeling hurt and torn

I lay down an look into your eyes

Seeing not flames but cold inside

you push me away "you hurt me"

you scream and I start to cry

"your sorrys are nothing but a lie"

I jerk violently awake

Knowing that this dream was as real as much as it was fake