Did you mean to leave?

Did you mean to leave
Was it in your plan
If it was fourteen years ago
Would you do it again if you can

Was it a simple mistake
Do you wish you were here
Or was it too much
Couldn't live another year

Am I being selfish
Thinking I am something to live for
All I want is too have you
A couple days more

Do you feel my hurt
And cry my tears
Do you laugh with my smiles
And share my fears

Do you want to hold me
And see me grow
Do you miss your child
You were barely able to know

What were your last thoughts
Were any of me
If you had a second chance
Where would you rather be

Did you know what was happening
Did you know what it would do
Leave me forever incomplete
Forever searching for you

It was an accident
It was not your choice to leave
And if it meant I could always have you
I wish it were forever New Years Eve

But a new year has started
And you are still away
And I am here missing you
On another New Years Day