My Suicide

by CareBear   Jan 13, 2005


Alone and no one gives a F*#K
I sit as I slowly fade away
I am just a memory
Not good enough to be true
Not good enough for you to even talk to
No one cares at all
I laugh as I see your faces in my head
I imagine the expressions as you find me dead
I tried to build myself up
Tried to stay strong
But you just left me there
Your actions pulled me down
I used to be the one you ran to
But thats in the past
Things have changed so much
I am now so alone
Thoughts of suicide calm me
They keep me sane
I am nothing
I don't mean anything
I am worthless
Living a life that would put you to shame
You don't know the truth
I want to end it so badly
Would you cry if I left?
Would you try and stop me?
Would you even notice?
After all, you act like I'm invisible
My suicide, How I wish I could
My suicide it sounds so sweet
Death, ah, what a lovely thought
This would scare you
To read what I want more than anything
Yes, I need to die
To leave this life
God, Almighty please take me
Please this has to be my time
I cut so deep cause of you
Blood stains the carpet
There's so much, so much sweet, sweet blood
MUst cut deeper, there's not enough
I'm not scared
It doesn't hurt one bit
You thought I'd stop for you
But you made me cut deeper and deeper
Still my soul cries for more
I want the end
I can't help but smile as I see the crimson river
To all those I promised to stop for, I'm very sorry
I regreted it so many times before
But not this time
I smell the blood
I see the crimson stained tissues
They stare up at me
I'm out of luck this time
The blood stopped flowing out of my wrists
I am still here
All I am left with is cuts on my wrists
Blood stained tissues
and a hell I call life that I'll have to live for another day
I'll sleep through another night
My hearts racing
I guess my suicide failed once more

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  • 19 years ago

    by Paula

    wow, this is a rad poem. very well thought out.. keep on writing, you got talent.. it would be awsome if you could comment or vote on a couple of my poems
    Paula
    xoxox

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