Fake Smiles

I'm going to smile
So no one will know
Of my pain deep inside
I won't let it show
I'll fight back the tears
I won't let them fall
They'll stay to myself
They won't know at all
I'll save my tears
For when I lie in my bed
I get so scared
Of the thoughts in my head
My eyes hurt so much
My pillow is soaked
This can't be happening
This must be a joke
I cry all the tears
Till theres nothing left
I'll act like I didn't cry
But the memories will be kept
When I go to school in the morning
I'll put a smile on my face
I'll cover up the scars
So they won't see disgrace
I'll smile and I'll laugh
Act like it's okay
So that won't know
That for happiness I pray