Dear Mom And Dad

Dearest Dad, Dearest Mom
I know you loathe
What I have become

But in your heart
Can’t you see your why
I’m torn apart?

And through all this time
Can’t you see you never
Let my life be mine

I know you wanted to try
To do your best by me
But all it led to was me saying goodbye

I sure hope you see the mistake
And I hope you grieve
For every other one you make

I looked up to you some days
But I always saw the real you
You and your sick ways

The abuse the pure torment
The nights I cried my heart out
How love just came and went

The mornings curled in the corner bruised
Because I said I was too ill for school
I was a lost child, cos I felt so used

The many times I ran with a rope
Planning to end it all
You never ever gave me any hope

And every promise you ever said
When I was young I believed
But now I know you’re no more use dead

And in my heart I find it hard to forgive
Cos don’t you see
You’re a reason I don’t want to live.

© Copyright Sharon Ardern 2005

* this poem is based on my feelings about a year ago, things have changed a bit, I have grown to forgive my mom, but not my dad for reasons it would take a mile of paper to explain x x x x