Why?!?!

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I'm sitting here thinking about that day...The day you ruined my life...
The day you took everything i had..
Took my soul....Lifted me there wishing i was dead...laying there crying...screaming inside....scared...
Ever since i was 4 years old i always loved hanging out with you..
You were great.. i loved you... till i was 12...and u hurt me SO bad...
you said it wouldn't hurt ill be fine
just go with it....i did hurt and i wasn't fine... you were hurting me so bad... it felt like i was being ripped apart from inside out...crying
and screaming telling you to stop...
every time i told u to stop u would
push harder....ever since that day..
i always wish i was dead...always
sitting in the corner crying.....always getting the knife....always going deeper as the day goes by....
never could i forget Ur face...or how u pushed so hard....u made me bleed for days.....never will i forget how u put me through hell...never will i forget how u got out of jail.....never will i forget how u said...you'll come back for me.......Ur in my nightmares... every time i hear Ur name i want to scream and just cry.....i thought u cared about me... i thought u really was my buddy....i was to young to know what u were doing... then when that night came...it came to me...you was doing a sin....babe one day u better be the one watching out.. its not over till Ur gone.. before u do it again or 2 someone else...*this poem is to my cuz... i want him to know how he hurt me...its a true story to...it happened at my house when he was babysitting me...*