Happiness Will Never Come

I thought things were getting better
It seemed everything was going good
But thats never how it is

When things start to get better
They just end up getting worse
I'm losing my best friend and that hurts

So i sit here with my friend the blade
Making cuts on my leg
On my arm
Everywhere
Telling the sad stories that whisper in the air

I'm not able to smile
The few times i do its fake
In front of my mom to make her think everything is fine
Even tho i hate her all the time

If she doesn't see me smile
I get grounded
There goes another cut

She is making me go to summer school
Even tho i don't have to
Theres another one

There r many more cuts
And many more to come
I thought i knew what happiness was once
But now it will never come