Nothing To Do But Wait

A distant shadow draws near
Haunting my fragile mind
Confirming my worst fear:
That I was indeed so blind

I put so much at stake
Just so I could slide
And smile along so fake
And keep the world at my side

But who was I trying to kid?
I fell brutally all the same
And now I feel so stupid
I am the only one to blame

Okay so you found in me stuff to abuse
My ego took a battering constantly
But still it’s not enough to excuse
The way I let the world defeat me

So every time I fall down the hole
I know I created it many years ago
And though I tried to fight it, heart and soul
My reactions were just too slow

And now I stumble between
Agony and despair
Memories I wish were just a dream
And I can not help but stare

Transfixed by the world before me
The world I wanted to be a vital part to
But those ones who chose to ignore me
Well they stole my heart, too

And now I lay down broken at my best
Nothing left to do but wait and cry
Too tired to attempt to impress
All I need to do now is die.

© Copyright Sharon Ardern 2005