Hollow

So many words I write
So many tear drops through the night
Nor words, nor tears could explain
The complications of this pain

Of all these things I write
Of remorse and regret
It’s not necessarily that I am lonely
Or that no one has heard me yet

It destroys me- I’m so tired
But it’s not the hopelessness or stares
It kills me over and over again
That no one seems to care

Hollow
It’s all I feel inside
Why has no one saved me?
In no soul I can confide

Unwanted
The pain intensifies
Unimaginably
50 million times

No relief, who can I cry to?
I just want someone to hold
Love- I see it worthless
It always dies- for all I know

But still I hold on
To what faith that I have left
Surprised that I’m not utterly drained
From your torturous theft

Still I will try to love
It comes easy to me
But hate comes easy too
And right now, hate’s all I see

I will hold on to another
And beg for someone who understands
All I want is to be heard
All I want is to be loved

Copyright ©2005 Jessica Tedder