Faded Girl

Inside of my broken soul lies a girl who longs to be set free
A girl I am no longer familiar with, yet I know she once was me

But somewhere in this tortured life a rock was thrown in my way
And so, without confrontation, I stumbled and faded away

Tears fled out of my shaded eyes and hit the ground below
As I realized that this girl would never again have the chance to grow

Ever since my unexpected fall, I've sat here in this place
Never looking, never seeing, never acknowledging a passing face

I was too scarred, and in too much pain to make it through
And I laid here on the frozen path, alone, I never grew

I closed my eyes and waited, praying that this would just pass by
So I sat in agony, refusing to scream, denying myself the chance to cry

Slowly, piece by piece, each moment a part of me withered and died
And ever-so-slightly, one more important memoir left my side

I reached out for a hand to hold, someone to lead the way
To bring me out of this crimson pain and tell me I'd be OK

But no one ever came for me, no one ever saw the girl that fell
So my crushed spirit simply retreated straight in to hell

I prayed to the angels and asked for their guiding light
So I could make it through hell's brushed red and murdered fright

As I sit here writing of myself before the fall that I endured
Tears fall from my glazing eyes, knowing I'll NEVER be cured

I know somewhere inside me lies the girl that used to believe
The girl with effortless smiles, the girl who gave, to then receive

But she walked away with me, she's just a memory from the past
A girl who used to live on the greener side of the pasture's grass

Now, there's just a skeleton, no remains of who I once was
People try to look into my mind, but all they see is dark, black fuzz

I hold no past, I hold no future, I stay in one place and cry
And though I hate to say it ... some days I wish I could just die.

I am so lost right now. I'm so broken. I'm so alone. And for the first time in my life, I don't have any hope, and I'm scared.