Tear drops of pain

The tear drops on my pillow
the pain in my heart
the irreplaceable search
where do i start?
i sit he gasping
thinking of days past
days of fun and laughter
and how i always thought they'd last
i lost myself somehow
through the mess of all of this
i lost me
the minute we shared a kiss
because my life you did destroy
all the lost minutes and seconds
were always your ploy
so now do you want a prize?
for creating broken hopes
filled to the top with hidden lies?
thanks to you
in my memory
theres so much i now want to erase
in my mind
is a woven pain filled piece of lace
you broke down my soul, my core
destroyed emotions
and left me grasping on the floor
all these tears i continue to cry
are tears of pain
tears of which
i can never regain