Let me sleep

It's 8p.m. and I'm begging for sleep to over come me
I can't take the waking hours
Sleep the only place where peace takes me
Begging for the lullaby of music to take me in it's wrath
To be dormant to have no worries
To not be sad anymore
To not have to live in life full of despair
Begging for the night noises to carry me into it's realm of dark
Where only the sleepers lie
Begging my warm blankets to grab me into where the damned find happiness
It's 9p.m. and I've still haven't fallen asleep
I'm lying in my bed crying into the pillows
Begging that i cry a river of tears till i can't cry no more
Scrunched into a little ball
But it's so hard
It's so hard
Begging for the right to be able to sleep the one thing i demand
But denied the right
It's 10p.m. and I'm lying under my covers praying to God
For things to turn out better
Begging God and asking why does this hurt so much
Please let me sleep
The waking hours hurt so much
No one understands
I try to reach out but they don't understand
My body aches my soul hurts
My heart is shattered
God please just let me sleep
let me sleep