Staying Strong

As I sat down by the fire
And watched it crackle and glow,
I thought of him,
How this warm feeling,
Reflects back,
Back at how warm it felt when he hugged me.
Now the warm feeling is lost,
There’s nothing,
Only me and the fire.
A thought came up to me saying,
“You have to face it, he’s gone, he’s dead!”
Dead!
Yes, he’s dead.
Now, I’m lost,
lost forever in this world.
The sense of loneliness fills my body.
He’s been forever with me,
Did everything together!
From Pre-K until now,
I’m 34 years old,
While he, yes, my husband,
Is 36 and he has died!
It’s been 8 years since we got married,
And in between those 8 years,
We had 2 children,
A boy and a girl,
Our son’s 4 and our daughter’s 2!
And it’s a shame that he can’t see his children grow!
While their vastly asleep,
The vision of his death went through my mind,
He walked across the street to get ice cream for the kids,
Suddenly…
A drunk driver just knocked him down,
I was shocked!
And so were the kids who saw him fall,
Dialled 911 and ran for him!
Called the officer there was an accident,
The officer told us to wait!
The smell of blood started flowing down from his head,
And started to roll down his cheek,
The kids were crying, praying for their father with me.
We were all in panic!
I was holding him and screaming to him to stay alive…
The Ambulance arrived and I wasn’t allowed in!
I waited and waited,
5 hours passed and I had just heard the news,
He has died!
Nothing could change what had happened,
Nothing!
But then I remember his last words and that is:
“I love you, I will stay with you forever, just stay strong, stay strong, stay stro..ng!”
I’m left to do one thing and only ONE thing,
And that is to stay strong!
*Dedicated to those wives who lost their husbands* supported by MADD*