Broken

Cutting for the sake of cutting
just to feel the pain
knowing i've nothing to loose
and nothing more to gain

inside so many feelings
they never are revealed
i hold them down inside of me
my lips they remain sealed

i wish that i could tell someone
but no one seems to care
and every time i look around
no one is ever there

i have tried to tell them
tell them how i feel
but they never take me seriously
to them my feelings are not real

i sit alone and cry at night
just me, myself and i
knowing nothing in life is right
no matter how hard i try

i look into the mirror
and i hate what i see
i see a stupid messed up girl
one that isn't me

i hate what i've been doing
hate looking at the blade
this will become an awful memory
one i will want to fade

i used to be so different
but something in me has changed
something that i cant control
that is making me act strange

i have done such stupid things
things that i regret
but no matter what i try
i cannot forget

ive been rejected by my family
and laughed at by my friends
its like I'm having a big bad dream
one that never ends

how could this happen to me?
could all this shit be true?
will everything turn out alright,
and will i make it through?

the answers to my questions
i may never find
but ill continue searching
searching through my mind

all i know right now is
i really don't belong
all i know right now is
everything is wrong